Am I truly going crazy?

There are so many days where I feel I need a padded room or closet to hide away in,not really but my son does make me feel like I am a raving crazy women.I have to punish him so much and in all my years babysitting and being around kids it was never like this.I asked Mark about him as a child and his mom told him to have to be punished a lot and now I know where it comes from.He is sooooo much like his dad and I am still trying to fine me in that kid and wished he was a little more like me.He is almost all Mark and just a tiny bit like me.I am not feeling well as of yesterday and I want someone to care for me and my son just doesn't get it at all.He says he's sorry when I get mad and then tell him I am sick and I think he means it but it doesn't really help.In a few months I will be able to have more help from Mark(his dad) when we finally live together.I want this so very much and I know Anthony and Mark so also but I am a little bit scared because we haven't done this yet and I will be moving to another state.I have always lived in MI and not far from home and now I will be a ways away.I hope I feel better soon as life doesn't stop for how I feel and neither does my life as a mom.