Summer Time

As the temps started to go up,my son wanting to play in the pool and me hoping it doesn't get too hot....it began.It started out not too bad but then all of a sudden it got HOT!!! I was sweating and my son didn't want to play outside so much.Its not like he wanted to so much anyway with a 360 in the house and also with games he can play.As he plays he gets better and better,he even got something I didn't lol.Every time I filled the little kiddy pool he would end up dumping it out,this wasn't a good thing for sure.My mom said maybe I should fill with sand but I am sure he would end up dumping it all out.My son is a handful and a half,he gets in trouble more days then not.Daddy took some time off from work to spend some real one on one time with us and for his birthday party.I decided not to send invites through the mail and just invite using events on Facebook and for those not on there I called,I am so tired of doing all that and I don't get any RSVP.I thought this isn't for anyone other then my son and he is happy to play at Chuck E Cheese's and he doesn't care too much who comes.I do want to have guest so he can interact with them and open the gifts when the time comes.I need to pick up his gift yet and the birthday cupcake cake,not sure what we're getting on either.It is paining me so much to see my man having such a hard time with the move being moved back until further notice,with his job coming to an end and not sure what is going to happen next with the move,he is so upset over the whole thing.We got so close to the move and he can't stand to be away from his son let alone me for as long as he has had to be.I pray that it happens not too far out and it all survives,most of all that he makes the journey.He has trouble with stress and it really effects him in a big way,he doesn't deal well.To see my son watching his dad an wanting to be just like him is so cute.

Pulling Out Hair

My son is crazy and making me go mad,and that's more then I knew I could be.I can punish him for every wrong he does and I start out mild and work my way up and still he does it anyway.Monday we went to the cemeteries to pay our respects to past loved ones gone,as soon as I let go of his hand to help mom he walks around the car and that's with a car coming towards us the other way.Thankfully they were going slow and he stuck by the car all the way around.But dang him when I called him he didn't listen.He is good for that and no cares on where or what he is doing.I want to ask the doctor if he may have something wrong with him since I have never been around a child this bad and bone headed.....EVER.I called yesterday on getting him into developmental kindergarten this year,all I need to do is provide the necessary info.As soon as I do that I will have more time for me without him around and he will get the stuff he needs.Now I send him outside to play with his bubbles I found in the closet yesterday and now I can type more lol,he needs more kid play and outside time for sure.Tomorrow his dad is taking some time off from work and spending more time with us and I know Anthony will love and hate it lol.Daddy is the boss and what he says go's and I will also get some time away from him while he is here.Soon very soon we won't have this much trouble,I hope,but we will finally he a family who lives together.I so need to get some boxes or something to pack up my stuff in and not sure where to find the best place to get the best deal.I also need to find the moving truck to rent for the time when it comes.

My son in the things he does.

Months ago my son went to sit down on the deck and missed where his butt was going once he was down,he ended up falling off the deck and broke his arm.At least if it was going to happen he fell off the shortest side and on a bunch of dirt.On April 9th he was coming up the deck stairs and fell down four of them.By Monday I saw he was still really hurting and tried to get him into the doctors with no luck,since his insurance changed and his primary doctor didn't take it I couldn't take him to see him so I was looking for one that would take it.I first tried to as his case worker if I could and no luck then I called the insurance and found they picked him a doctor and they gave me the info.I called and found he couldn't get in till May and by then I could change his insurance then.So then I called the insurance back and another number.Again I called and again they couldn't get him in till May.So by the time I had called all them my sister was home,she said Ester told her to take him to the ER.Ester is her client and was once a nurse,she said it may be broke.I was already thinking I was going to have to since I couldn't get a doctor to see him and that's just what I did.Once I got to Metro Health Hospital ER I waited,then after the xray it was made real,my son had broke his arm at the wrist.Not only did he break his arm but the same arm,my mom said if he did it again they would think I was hurting him.One I would never do such a thing and Two they would know if I had most likely.My son is so accident prone and he gets that from his dad and I both.I hope he doesn't break any more of his bones and just enjoys life to the fullest.I found out from Marks mom he broke a wrist bone when he was little and nothing since and I haven't broke any......as far as I know.When the ER doctor came in to show me the break he used a photo copy and I got to keep that.So I have a doctor app. for him to get his cast wed. and I hope it all works out.

Picture Time Again

After my son turned 1 I only get pictures done once a year,this you think wouldn't be a hard thing to do.My son is great when the camera is on him with a great smile and poses pretty good too.Every time I let his dad know its that time again I get the same thing,can't there is no money to get it done.Yet every time I get enough and get them done,then send them out to all.This time he says we can't since he needs to save all he can for the house,I understand this.Not as much as he may think since he is more then happy to buy things for himself.So again I have to make it happen on my own,man am I tired of this.I hope this problem doesn't continue when we live together cause I can't get them done any cheaper,when he starts school he will get them done there.Now I am going to try and ask him something to see if he make the right decision,that would be for me to use the money I already have of his to use towards the pics.Then I will have his $40 plus the $25 I got from Beth to pay for the router,which is his also.$65 will most decently help my portrait fund,please let him pick the right decision.I am happy he is getting more healthy and enjoying the processes of working out at the gym.I actually want to join him and make us both healthy.I know if he gets me to go I will do the work,need to start out small then increase as I go.Mark did find out that Bolingbrook is too far,the nearest public transportation is 3 1/2 mile to walk and that's just too far.So now he has to let him cousin know so she can find a better location.I sent her a message letting her know just in case Mark hasn't yet,just to make sure she knows and can start looking.I find my son likes certain cartoons these days and new ones come out and he loves them.Right now he is watching Little Bear on nick jr. and he picked it over Dora and Mickey Mouse,he likes them both too.I like asking him what he wants to watch and it helps him make his own decisions,that a good thing.Well I just got a reply from my text message asking him what to do with the money I have for him for whats on ebay and he picked himself yet again,sometimes I think he thinks what he wants is more important then what I need for our son.When I ask him what one to get he says we will talk later on what one HE wants.We will have to see what is said on that conversion.
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Ok ok I was wrong,he called me back and made a good choice,he said I can use the money on our son and not on pics but made a noise which says he was kidding.He did end up wanting one but it was the cheapest one and that's ok.I am happy to hear what he picked and the old Mark wouldn't have made this choice.I so love him no matter what and I am just feeling more that he said it was ok for me to keep the money for our son.

New Update March 23,2011

The 2 home listings Mark got from his cousin didn't work out since she didn't call him back,he was going to look at them and maybe get one.He was looking for an apartment for us but all an all it cost less per month to just get a house.I hope I can find a job when I get there or we are going to have trouble.I know I won't get a great job when I get there but a job would be nice to get us going,the work to get something better later.Mark is now going to go with a different real estate agent that will work with us an be professional.

Handy Tony(2011)

My son loves the Disney show Handy Manny and I thought a workbench would be a great idea as a gift my mom could get him for Christmas,and it has.Every so often he plays with it,i just wish he would treat it better then he does.I hope he will be more handy then his dad,don't get me wrong Mark is handy.......with a computer,but I want our son to be handy with more things then computers.I would love a boy who wants to fix more then computers,like his grandpa Vince,who could make things from wood.I wouldn't even mind a boy who can fix cars like my father,brother and nephew.Well what ever he picks for his future I hope he does well,supports himself and enjoys it.My sister got him a baby for Christmas and that was because he wanted one after my nephew's gf had a baby,his baby's name is Billy(Grandma P. helped with name).

Gone Crazy

My son is still doing the bad things and seems to only hear me when I yell,I don't want to and try not to.We are working on the whole thing and so far no matter what I do or say thats all that works.I know people would tell me to find another way and says there are other ways but so far I have tried all kinds trust me and he is still really naughty.According to his dads mom his dad was just like that and she had to punish him a lot.....lucky me.Now my son tries to avoid going to bed with all kinds of reasons,my baby isn't here or mom I have to tell you something.I have even found him in my bed when I go even though I told him that he doesn't sleep with me,so I wake him up and make him go to bed in his own bed.It is true kids say the darn-dist things.I can tell when he is up to something when he tip toes fast from where ever he is,he claims he isn't doing anything....when he is.Also when I get on him about something he is done and he cries I know its an accident.I can't wait till the day when he is going to school and playing with other kids learning all kinds of things,I just hope its in Illinois.

Am I truly going crazy?

There are so many days where I feel I need a padded room or closet to hide away in,not really but my son does make me feel like I am a raving crazy women.I have to punish him so much and in all my years babysitting and being around kids it was never like this.I asked Mark about him as a child and his mom told him to have to be punished a lot and now I know where it comes from.He is sooooo much like his dad and I am still trying to fine me in that kid and wished he was a little more like me.He is almost all Mark and just a tiny bit like me.I am not feeling well as of yesterday and I want someone to care for me and my son just doesn't get it at all.He says he's sorry when I get mad and then tell him I am sick and I think he means it but it doesn't really help.In a few months I will be able to have more help from Mark(his dad) when we finally live together.I want this so very much and I know Anthony and Mark so also but I am a little bit scared because we haven't done this yet and I will be moving to another state.I have always lived in MI and not far from home and now I will be a ways away.I hope I feel better soon as life doesn't stop for how I feel and neither does my life as a mom.